My Primary Blogging Thought
My primary thought lately when I sit to blog is “I am exhausted.” Seems hardly worthy sharing on a daily basis.
I heard this self-thought countless times through last week, as I’m sure most locals did.
I am hearing it less often this week: I’ve taken it slow. I’ve taken a good, hot, bath. I haven’t had time for tea.
I’m trying to think of thankful thoughts, and of the Lord, and mainly verses meditated on that are now committed to memory as a result, and boy! Am I every thankful for those verses lofting in my head in these times!
But, mainly it’s about finding order, fixing roofs, helping others still clean up huge limb messes, and grabbing whatever R&R you can grab in between responsibilities, enjoying every available moment for a taste of “normal” you can find. There is a grace in it, but priorities and balance have to reign or you are easily cranky and annoying.
I’ve stayed away from cranky overall, but easily get cranky right now.
It’s just a lot of work, and everyone is tired, but we keep on keeping on. We need to “encourage one another daily” or it probably ain’t gonna work…none of it. We are all covering for others who can’t be there, are dealing with there own leaks, breaks, and emergencies, all so tired of the word “storm”. I suppose we are trying to pretend, or be encouraged that it’s all over since most of us have power. But, the reality is…people I know don’t have it yet. I saw a woman at Upward who was using her cistern, which she was thankful to have, and still has no power.
Most of us are covering for multiple people out of place, dealing with tired people, demands that feel too much for anyone. Many of us are cranky with some of it, underneath an also very real thankfulness.
I was praying about this last week and I said, “Lord, we have already BEEN strong. We’ve proven ourselves. Come on! Another hit?”
His reply, “Be stonger. I need you strong-ER.”
At first, it seemed harsh, and then I recall times saying the same sorts of words to my own children when times called for just “more” from them. And so…we keep on.
So, I encourage us to be stronger. I encourage us to “encourage one another”, even when we’ve given all we can give just to get where we need to be. I encourage us to go the distance, to keep giving more, doing more, and to “not grow weary in doing good, for you will reap a harvest at the proper time if you do not give up.” (New Testament, Holy Bible– http://www.Biblegateway.org if you need the reference.)
I’m getting rested, but still feeling exhausted deep down…not sure when that feeling will every go away, in spite of inspiring stories I love to hear, ones that lift my spirits. Certainly, there are those who deserve the feeling much more than me, and certainly we are blessed. We are recovering. We have recovered, to large degree…we even appreciated and enjoyed parts of “the Ice Storm of the Century”.
Yet, e are a tired people; I dare say, not too tired to handle whatever we need to face, but understandably tired. I’m not sure how you continue to blog when “recovery” is pretty much all that is STILL going on. I have inspiring moments, but those seem meant for me right now as a person rather than to share by blogging, apologies there. I’m “treasuring and pondering these things in my heart.” much as Mary did, I suppose. Whether I’m too tired, the moments are too raw, or I feel the issue must seem old…perhaps a combination of them all. In any case, God is good, all the time…all the time, God is good. This I know.
Take special care…everyone.
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