Just In Case…
Man! Watching the storms and tornadoes ravage through Oklahoma makes me want to cry. I guess it’s just too close to where we’ve been. Thousands without power, total devastation…and there, already eight lives lost confirmed. Searches house to house. Just last February, a week ago, that’s where we were. This year, the ice storm. Now facing high hurricane level winds and potential for more tornadoes through the night. It’s just exhausting to think about it.
Once again, playing out the “What if’s…”
- Getting extra milk, just in case.
- Getting the storm closet cleaned out, just in case.
- Washed all the towels yesterday, just in case.
- More bottled water, just in case.
- Batteries ready, just in case.
- Making plans to watch schools, just in case.
Since last August or so, nothing is normal. “Just in case”…all the time. It must be some heavenly drill at this point. I pray for those preparations. I trust them. I want them for my children, to train and strengthen them, while we are hear to help and teach.
Even knowing that, days like today, I get weary. Weary of news. Weary of preparations and filling holes and worrying about family and kids and disasters.
And days like today, I block it all, for a while, even while I deal with the jobs. I do the work. I schedule prayer, and time in the word, and time for some “normal things”…things I want to do, like the treadmill, and a good bath. I find myself, like Ann, totally reliant on scriptures memorized and impressed on the pages of my heart at this time…not at all able to search and read and sit and contemplate. Just moving, and listening, hearing…those words that have sustained me in the past. Relying on them. Enjoying them. So thankful for seasons spend meditating on the word, and the seasons that took me there to that dependence then.
Today, I seek a refreshing.
I need it to continue on with joy and focus and strength.
I need to find his eyes. Clear my mind…hear his voice. Feel His strength. Ask for His mercy. Trust His faithfulness.
We are all tired. We just can’t do it on our own.
There is little pretense or false cheer left to try to prop emotion.
We must be strong, and do the work, and find the fun, enjoy people, smile.
Thoughts of rationing food last week still makes me cranky…yet, I will trust Him, and move forward.
Lord, refresh us all for what is to come. Show mercy to us. Helps us prepare. Help us hear and walk in obedience…even in our fatigue and worry and through our fear.
Keep us safe.
Be with those I love today, and those in Oklahoma especially, right now…those without power and those afraid, especially with the children and the elderly.
Put a song in our hearts to keep singing…even while the storms roll again.
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