Today, I mopped the floor good before the kids are home for Thanksgiving break. I got grocery shopping somewhat caught up for kids home for meals. I got chicken defrosting for dinner.
Glad I took some time to recover my spirit today–Lord knows I needed it tonight.
The second half of today? Sometimes you think you are due a break and you get hit with another situation, and it’s very hard to keep going, to find the emotional reserve. But, you do…because people are worth it.
I feel so worn out tonight. I was so hoping for a restful Thanksgiving.
Tired of “issues”. “Situations” dictating the landscape. Yet, I know they are for my good, somehow. Perhaps the Lord uses them to keep my focus tied up instead of letting me get too introspective. I don’t know. I’m trying to find a way to say “thank you” about it when I don’t feel it at the moment.
I prayed last week, “Lord, do don’t let me fall behind in parenting with so much going on. Fill in my gaps, keep me on my toes. Show me. Fill the gaps with my kids. Help me. Help.”
I won’t dishonor growing kids by venting all their stuff here, but parenting prayers are appreciated…for fortitude, effective discipline, appropriate discipline, good modeling, God’s presence to be with us as we try to lead. Just refreshing and strength for continued tasks bigger than me. Everything in my life is a “God sized” thing right now, and I should be thankful that I’m forced to be so dependent on Him.
Mom called tonight and I was just so short and snappy not being able to talk with her about what was really going on with me with the kids in earshot. “Business issues” dictated, simply because that was the only thing safe to talk about, and more papers was the last thing on my mind to want to talk about at the time.
Here is the part where I try to make this applicable and meaningful and draw you into the conversation. And I just don’t have it in me to come up with any of that. Thanks for the prayers and support.