Today is the last Tuesday for a long while that I share with mom on the same continent. I think of those who travel and go on extended mission trips and how strong their families are…how utterly supportive and joyful they seem to me.
And I wonder if they feel in their hearts what I feel in mine. The losses. The griefs. The cost. And yet, compared to what Jesus paid for us, we pay nothing. We are dead to Christ already, all of us. Alive in Him.
In any case, a defining Tuesday. Mom’s voice cracked on the phone a few times last night telling me her flight had been scheduled for Wednesday. The schedule of sometime Wednesday to Friday had me believing I had another week. Not so. Only this day. And she is in Houston, training to prepare.
God is good. He sustains us by his good grace and with our work which must continue to be done.
My first thanksgiving for today is that I got the first coat of three walls of our Master Bedroom painted last night after supper was cleared before the carpet gets here this week. I didn’t much feel like doing it, but it was logical. The second praise is that I’d already had a color in mind! The third praise is that we both liked it when I put it on the wall! Whew.
There are times when the burdens of life, while they are the Lord’s to carry, when they look you in the face, they just make you sick at your stomach. This is one of those. Even though I believe it is God’s will. I believe he will lead and guide, but I lack the experience, the courage, the faith, at times. Fears attack.
In these times…I know I need to be strengthened again from within or I simply will not make it. I go right to my purse and pull out some cards I had prepared with the laminator Mom got me for my birthday a couple months ago. I made Mom and I matching sets. I gave them to her the night before she left:
I will not in any way fail you nor give you up nor leave you without support. [I will] not, [I will] not, [I will] not in any degree leave you helpless nor forsake nor let [you] down (relax My hold on you)! [Assuredly not]! Hebrews 13:5 AMP
The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, the have divine power to demolish strongholds. We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ. (2 Cor. 10:1)
May the favor of the Lord our God rest upon us, yes, establish the work of our hands. Psalm 90:17
I am the vine, you are the branches, He who abides in me and I in Him, he bears much fruit; Apart from me, you can do nothing. John 15:5
My child, do not lose sight of common sense and good judgment. Hang onto them, for they will refresh your soul. They are like jewels on a necklace. Proverbs 3:21-22
Blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, whose confidence is in him. Jer. 17:7
Rejoice in the Lord always. Again I will say it. Rejoice! Let your gentleness evident to all, the Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Phil. 4:4-9
There is no fear in love [dread does not exist], but full grown (complete, perfect) love turns fear out of doors and expels every trace of terror. For fear brings with it the thought of punishment, and [so] he who is afraid has not yet reached the full maturity of love (is not yet grown into love’s complete perfection.) I Jn. 4:18
I read these in the moments of my day when I can capture a few minutes of focus…in the bathroom, before I rest, when I slump. And he lifts me back to the spiritual plain…the only place I can thrive. Not just survive, but thrive in the strength and peace and joy he restores.
I’m banking on that strength today. “Seek me and you will find me if you seek with all your heart. I will be found by you.” (Old Testament)
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