How is “1000 Gifts” Affecting Me?
It has been interesting. For a while, I didn’t know that it was doing anything except taking time from tasks.
Noting these things is making me focus on, remember, and cherish those things that I really do cherish.
It’s making me number how very blessed I am, in spite of some isolated struggles that can easily grow out of perspective and totally dominate the emotional climate if left to themselves.
I hope to finish, and highly recommend it.
It is increasing my love for my family.
It is calming me.
And to do both of those at the same time right now, with mom leaving in just a few days? That’s saying a lot.
Yup, I’m still easily tearful in the right situation…but I’m not home depressed or crying the last few weeks. I’m just going to have to get used to a heightened sense of emotional response for a while with songs and emotional times. That’s just the way it is.
But, we drive when it’s raining, right? We just turn on the windshield wipers, we only drive when we have to, we go a bit slower…but we keep going, because that’s what we were made to do. I may have to minimize some things just because having swollen eyes is not always best for life and a lingering headache gets annoying after a while. But, I’m doing well. It’s just a journey. I watched my Mom go through a lot of this for a year when my step-Dad went over, and I saw how she kept going. I didn’t know how. I didn’t understand the cycles of coping and doing fine and grieving all the time. How it worked. How anything worked. Now, I know. I’m getting to know. By grace alone–we are a made strong.
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