The Morning: Showered. Getting ready to thaw chicken cooked earlier this week. Making pot pies for our family gathering this afternoon with it.
Frozen Food System Progress: Again, so thankful to have “treated” myself to partially prepared, frozen, food before “the moment” it is needed. A gift I give myself. While I didn’t “feel like” doing it when I came home from shopping Monday, I have much less time and energy to portion out for today.
We are still eating leftover pork loin. I’ve thawed it twice to fill in weekends when we’ve been working. This is the best working system for food I’ve ever had. It is making me feel balanced in an emotionally charged time. Days I don’t feel like cooking something from scratch, I still have food for my family. It’s truly wonderful.
Today, The Schedule: Mom has a commitment with her husband’s family until 2-3. We get her 3-5. Revival for praise band is 5:30-7.
Yesterday, The Report: Pretty good. I cried once. I dragged around a little. But, got some small things done to prepare for today–shopping. Cleaned out the phone drawer and my desk piles. That makes me feel more settled somehow. Praise band was mixed up with volunteers for revival. That newness was fun.
Projects Today: Got one corner of my scrap room floor cleaned this morning, went to the grocery for a third pot pie. I think we’ll need three. My family can almost eat a whole one! Getting ready to make chocolate chip muffins for the boys, chocolate chip cookies for the gathering, and defrost chicken.
My Quite Time Today: I was cleaning (what I do sometimes when I’m stressed, like my mom always did), and I ran across a scripture hanging on the inside of a cabinet from scripture memory work in January (where I stopped, but that’s one month!)
It said, “Do not be anxious for anything, but in prayer and petition with thanksgiving, offer your requests to God, and the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” (New Testament)
I’ve read that a million times. But, “thank” glowed off the page.
I’ve not been that.
Not really. I’ve understood God was working. I know I can trust that. But, I’ve sort of not been of the full opinion to agree that this could possibly be “best”.
But, you know what? For peace, I need to thank him. I realized that in order for me to thank Him, I have to not necessarily thank him for the things that cause hardship, but for what he is going to bring about out of it.
I can thank him that he has a better plan than I could come up with.
I can not hold out on him, [edit: NOT] expecting him to ask my permission. I have already given him full reign!
So no, it’s no longer an attitude of “but, I don’t have to like it”.
It’s time to move foward with God–to hope in the things he will do–to have faith, to praise Him “ahead of time.”
Today…that is what I will begin to do.
My Personal Goals for Today: I don’t know where I’ll land. But, my heart’s desire is to stay human enough to identify with my kids today, and yet strong enough to carry them. It is time for that shift. I know God will strengthen me for the tasks ahead today, and that he will provide for them, even where I’m not enough. He is good.
I thank Him.
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