Some days are like walking through quicksand, or a heavy, thick fog. Steps slowed, eyes narrowed, body slumped. Nothing computes. Nothing quite adds up to logic. Nothing is reasonable.
And yet. There is God. There is truth.
After I’d had enough of a nap to stand “fixing”, I picked up the two youngest at school and headed to the park with my Bible and favorite scripture cards.
I let them play.
Within two verses, just a few minutes, in the midst of many “Mommy, watch me!” calls, the light began to return to my soul.
It is faster than medicine sometimes the way the word of God can “treat” what is battered within us.
It amazed me again.
Just knowing afresh that He IS in charge. He IS in command. He DOES care. He DOES know. He IS merciful. He DOES love us very much. He WILL NOT leave us. He IS in control of our paths. His purposes ARE so much higher than us and our neediness. He NEEDS us fully surrendered. Dead to self, alive to Christ. Nothing short of that will do.
Though we know all this, in our need, in the depth of the darkness and fear, he speaks it again, when we are strong enough to hear it…and it heals us, over and over and over again.
I love the word of God. It IS Christ himself, the Word made flesh. He IS near, and when I am able to take it in and breathe it in and know that I know that I know that every word there is true, it helps me. How do others make it without it? I do not have a clue. I need it in the kitchen, in the bathroom, in the morning, in the evening, in the car, in my purse, on the way, on the way back. Either I’m that needy or few others know how much it really helps when you have it around you always. I’m not sure I need to know which that is. But, if you are needy, he is near. Get rested, get relaxed, meet with him, and let him speak to you.
But, I know this. A nap is good. But, rest without a good “quiet time” doesn’t fix me. It only prepares me to meet with Him, if I’m willing. If I realize nothing else will help. No shopping spree, no chocolate fudge cookie ice cream, no workout, no chips with bean dip (I know simply because I tried every one of those first today).
Being in the word only makes me want more–and more for everyone that I know.
And that’s just the way it should be.
I’m still tired. I’m still moving slow. I still didn’t get everything done I wanted to do today. But, that’s okay. I’m where I need to be. It is always enough.
Entry filed under: Everyday.