Today

Today is a day to find the key that unlocks the day.

Today is a day to enter the door unlocked by the key,

and determine not look back.

To move forward by faith.

A day of thanksgiving,

celebration and joy.

Blessing.

Surrendered rest.

Purposeful, joy-filled work.

Jesus bore it all…already.

RECEIVE.

Today is a day to look to hope.

Faith.

Every day

at each new dawn

is a glorious, beautiful

TODAY.

My Day Lily 2008

Mid-day Prayer

Meaningful…

give me something heaped with meaning!

Suprise me…

surprise me with REAL LIFE!

Beautiful…

amaze me with Your beauty!

Stun me…

stun me with delight!

Invite me…

seat me at your banquet table

Feast with me…

finest of foods that satisfy

Look at me…

though I am weary

Energize me…

with YOUR LIFE!

Song of Solomon 2:4
He has taken me to the banquet hall, and his banner over me is love.

Isaiah 55:2
Why spend money on what is not bread, and your labor on what does not satisfy? Listen, listen to me, and eat what is good, and your soul will delight in the richest of fare.

Zephaniah 3:17
The LORD your God is with you, he is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his love, he will rejoice over you with singing.”

Father Prayer

Lord,

You are.

You are blessing and honoring and moving.

I see it.

Help me to trust you more.

Not melt down when I don’t have to; or be afraid to melt down when I need to; 

Oh, if I knew the fine line between the two!

Help me to keep loving and trusting and praying

Not fearing and dreading and losing hope 

Able to cry; not crying too much

Laughing, savoring, preparing…

Not freezing up–despairing.

Reveal yourself to me

Every hug, every song over me

Every butterfly, drop of rain,

Everything!

Pointing to You

Provision, trust, hope, help,

Meeting needs,

“Keeping”; Not abandoning

 Never!

Father.  Father.  Father!  Father.  FATHER.

Father, you are to me.

I am  your child

Trusting.

Help me to trust you, and depend on you

You hear me when I beg you to!

Bless and keep us all.

Amen. 

space

space

and room

and a place

for us

stress 

and hurry

and worry

gone

less “striving”

pushing

ranting

fussing

more loving

smiling 

thanking

building

“Tent” Built for Two

Tomorrow I will build you a tabernacle!

I am no artichect,

I have no brick.

I will worship you there.

offer my “sacrifices”–

alone:

No people to observe

No service to critique

No people to minister to

No children to keep still

No schedule to follow

No responsibilities to pursue

I just really wanna worship you

in a tent built for two. 

raptured in your embrace

the world dimmed

in the light of your smile

Untangled,

Unhindered,

Unobserved

I wanna sing to you

For the pure joy of it

(As I always do)

But…tomorrow?

Just me…and you

In a tent built for two. 

Not even sure “I’ll” be there!

not in this shell…

a break from it ALL, 

true vacation

(from even myself):

limitations

schedule

pace

place

They all disappear

when I rise to meet you

in the place where we’ll meet

in our tent built for two.

No more process 

words

skills

gifts

Nothing but me

and you

and a “tent” built for two

Bold?  

A “date” with the Maker of the Universe?

I’ll have it tomorrow.

His attention

And He–mine

Tomorrow

me… and You?

As Moses sought you,

talked to you,

face to face…

as one man speaks to another

So…let me see your glory

Your mercy

Your love

Your favor

If I can stand your voice!

Hide me there

In a tent

built

for two

Sometimes Days Don’t Seem to Go So Well: Shield of Faith

Sometimes days don’t seem to go so well

We feel cheated

And then we remember prayers prayed

And we hope and try to understand

That it’s all for our good

Even when it hurts

Sometimes days don’t seem to go so well

But, who am I to say?

Is it not a day, made for my praise?

In all things

Not just the things I like–the fun times

Also, the pressure points, frustrations, irritations, limitations

All from a God who loves me, and knows just what we need

To make us who we need to be

Guide us where we need to go

Shield us where we cannot see

Push us where we need to grow

Lord, I’m sorry for the hurt I feel

Looking only at me

I honestly prayed for all involved

And I know you hear 

Help me trust you more, even when I’m hurting

More quickly, shield of faith!

Protect all inside of me

Extinguish fiery darts from the enemy

“Darts” saying

I don’t matter

Not thought of

Not strong enough

Not tall enough

Big enough

to handle it all

But you are!

And you are

I need the shield of faith

Deep down it’s there

Lord, can YOU hold it for a little while for me?

I know you can’t

MY faith!

But, to let me cry just a little while?

Allowed?  

Caught off guard

Unprepared

I need to cry

And I’ll get up

And we’ll go on…in faith

And you’ll hear every prayer

Meet every need

You always do

Astounding me

Though some days don’t seem to go so well

There’s no such thing as a ‘bad day’

Not with you

You own them all

You’re the boss!

Though it doesn’t feel fine at this very moment

I trust you

Because I know I can 

You’ve always done good for me

Always

Just takes me a while to see

So today

I trust in what I cannot see

And in the meantime, I know you hear me.

Getting Back Up,

~”Mag”

Totally Unskilled Roaming Poem on Grief

If you are my friend
Be patient with me
I am grieving
Babies, mine and yours–lost
old friends, mine and yours

I am afraid, somehow
of the inevitable
or the surprise
the danger
the accident
the loss, of any kind
Reminders of past losses, devastating losses
I cannot endure again
Or think I can’t

Or equally as mind boggling:
Contemplating life
Meaning
Purpose
Legacy
Lost–yet knowing, truly…I am not

All process
All part
But weighty, too weighty,
all of it together
Out of balance
Frustrated
Overwhelmed with the bulk of processing

This is grieving…
Distant, distracted, disconnected
Hurting–
My own sadness and yours
Mixed in a bag I cannot sift
Letting go,
yet washing back at my feet times a day

Grief on grief
Heartache on heartache
Open wounds–opening wounds
Mending
Healing…again
as grieve does
A healer, in and of itself–
(amazing thought)

Busy-ing myself
Because I need to
Mind, emotion, strength
Divert
Tiring easily,headaches, moods
Hating it–Touchy, Sensitive

Moving on…
takes…some….time

Regrouping
A tough month.
Not bouncing back
too much in a row– hits deep somehow

Others: stronger
More adept
Letting go “fast”
Me…learning, slow, frustrated, hiding, comparing
as I should not, I know

So…if I seem insensitive
Unconcerned,
Not because I don’t love you
Have found something or someone to replace you
Because I’m mad or thoughtless
or self centered
No, not really~
I need you

Push me!
But don’t push
Wait on me
But leave me alone
Find me
But let me be
Gently
Tangled mess that I am

Take me
Snappy, Emotional, Turse
“Busy”, Unprepared, Weepy
Agitated, Touchy, Faking

And…try again
When I blow it, please

Smile at me
Even if I don’t smile back
If I cry
or act cold
Don’t think me ”stuck up”
I’m not…try not to be
You know pain…how it hurts!
Even when you think it shouldn’t…
Not that much

or maybe it should

Be patient
And tell those I love
To be patient, too–
Moving… as fast as I can… forward….to better days…
without rushing grief …because I can’t seem to

~The Management

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Was surfing blogs and read this this morning. I love it. I think I’m going to have to put it on a notecard for reivew.

.: Greg from Winnipeg :.:

“I don’t have high expectations of this coming year. All I want is to do the
impossible at every turn, have a relationship with God so intimate that it
incapacitates me, bring community to the lonely, reality to the blind, distress
to the comfortable, Jesus to the hurting, pull the kingdom of darkness out of
this community by it’s roots, change the world and save the universe. For
starters.”